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Saturday, 01 January 2011

  • 2011 Wassup?

    I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions. 

    Why does this one day signify a blank slate? Why can't we constantly be trying to improve ourselves?

    So what if we break our resolution in a few days, or weeks? Is that reason to just quit and slump back into old habits just because we fell down once?

    This year will be about strength and courage. This year will be about continuous self improvement. This year will be about chances. This year will be about falling down, hard... and then picking up the pieces and launching forward at warp speed once again. This year will be about embracing failure because it means that a risk was taken. This year will be about living, breathing and rejoicing. 

     

     

Tuesday, 26 May 2009

Saturday, 03 January 2009

  • Me! Me! Me!

    I think I'm a ridiculous person but interesting, here's a bit about me:
      



    1. I have this scar on my left pointer finger from when I was 10     because I tried to cut an orange with a butchers knife. I ended up getting a deep cut on my finger and refused to go to the hospital to get stitches.





    2. I broke a window in my old high school.     My friend and I were arguing over who was the faster runner [obviously me] and we decided to have a race down the hall of the 4th floor. At the end of the hall, was a window... I was wearing flats... not something to be running in. I couldn't stop myself so my first instinct was to put my hands out and then I blacked out for 2 seconds. Once I came back, I started laughing my head off because I didn't understand what had happened. I looked into my friend's shocked eyes and said, "Let's not tell anyone about that." And she was still staring at me and I looked down and I was bleeding everywhere.

     



    3. I am undeniably accident prone.     Those 2 stories are just the tip of the iceberg.








    4. I'm terrified of water and aquatic life.     I've had this fear since I was about 6 and have yet to grow out of it. Whenever I go to the beach, I can only go so far into the water without feeling lightheaded. I can't watch shows with any scary creature like a shark or a squid. Even pictures of them give me nightmares.





    5. I'm an asthmatic.     I think that may be where the water fear comes from since it relates to drowning. I know what it's like not being able to breathe, and I NEVER want to find myself in that situation ever again.









    6. I used to be an athlete.     Growing up I played everything from rugby to soccer and from tennis to football and everything in between. My biggest passion was hockey. I played competitively for about 10 years until a knee and shoulder injury started to slow me down. For now, I just run... a lot. When it isn't gross out I go out on the trail by my house and if it is nasty, I just beat around on my treadmill for an hour. There is nothing better than endorphins rushing through your body.








    7. I loved Harry Potter BEFORE it became popular.     Lovin' HP since 1998.







     8. I'm doing a major in Behavioural Neuroscience. I hope to get into med school when I'm finished. If I don't, then I'll do a masters degree and then get my Ph D and have my own research team and make some fantastic discovery. Either way, I know I'll be happy with whatever direction my life takes me.








    9. I have never been in love before.     And I'm okay with that, 100%.










    10. I have natural curls.     However, I will never be able to appreciate it. Instead, I leave that look for lazy days and during finals month and the summer. Otherwise, I straighten it every chance I get. My hair looks like that picture, almost identical.









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    Might make a part 2 of this later :)



Thursday, 01 January 2009

  • '09 Resolutions

    I had planned on writing this last night but I got so caught up in the festivities that I just didn't have the time... anyways, here goes!

    1. The Classic Resolution: STAY HEALTHY!
    What this means for me is to actually book out an hour every day to go for a run just like I would book in a class or an activity or a social event in my Outlook Calendar. It also means to watch what I eat... and yet don't deprive myself... just don't over-indulge I guess. I won't count calories and I won't weigh myself obsessively. This is just about feeling good and healthy, not about the numbers on the scale.

    2. Focus on school, seriously.
    I know, that should be simple considering it's me... but I dunno, I feel as if what I'm doing isn't enough. So I've decided that after every class I WILL review the material and stop cramming things the night before. Also, I'll go to all my classes, no matter how brutally boring they are.

    3. Let go of the drama from the past.
    It's over, it's been over... it's in the past so keep it there. Don't unearth all the loose ends, leave them be. Don't bring it up and ruin yet another year.

    4. Stop being such a bitch!
    I need to start being nicer and doing good deeds because karma is a bitch.

    5. Think before you speak/type/text.
    Sounds simple enough but I am sooo impulsive. Maybe if I thought things through first I wouldn't find myself in tricky situations!

    6. Jot my thoughts down, don't let moments pass without documenting them.
    For some reason I can never actually sit down and always write down my thoughts and I regret it later on.

    That's all I can think of now! But I know it'll be a work in progress :)

Wednesday, 31 December 2008

  • '08: Not so great?

    So, one night I woke up and thought about my year and about how much had changed in one year... it was just unreal. I still cannot believe that I went through all that nonsense in one year.

    1. I lost my best male friend.
    It's so sad because I remember starting off 2008 with him telling me that I was the single most important person in his life. He then started growing away from me, or rather pushing me away and I kept trying to pull him back towards me. After awhile I just started to give up and every day that I didn't have him hurt more and more. Feelings escalated and what was once a sort of silent treatment turned into brutality of words and wit. We were both completely feuding with each other and always trying to "one-up" the other somehow. This also escalated to the point that he sent me a nasty email that pierced through me like a knife. I had never felt my life twist so out of control before. I couldn't believe that this same person had given me such a loving letter back in the beginning of '08. I just didn't know what to do... so I did nothing... noticeable anyways. It was an email after all, there's no way of him knowing that I had received it. So I raised my head up high, dressed to impressed and went to school ready to rule it the way I once did. I was good at faking happiness, really good in fact. It got to the point that he started to stalk me around school maybe hoping to see me slip up. I also went about torturing him, but in a conniving and discrete way. I think even to this date he doesn't know how much I had actually controlled and manipulated for those 2 months where the ball was in my court. I don't think I will ever tell him either. Anyways, the stalking got to be too much... I mean I was stage managing and organizing a concert and he sat through the sound check for 3hrs... something has got to give! So I mulled over it and the day after my birthday I approached him about it and we hashed it out. Now we're nothing but mere acquaintances. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I want him back. He still makes cameos in my life, but my god, what happened to us. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. He came into my life, shook it up and changed me forever.

    2. I suffered and completed one of the most rigorous internationally known high school diploma program- the International Baccalaureate Diploma Program
    I cannot believe, even to this day that I made it. IB was such a trial not because it was hard but because of the lifestyle that came with it. Overworked, overtired, stressed out of my mind... sometimes I blame myself for losing my best friend [this wasn't the actual case, and I see that now, but back then I thought it was all me]. I made it though, passed with flying colours and received a couple thousand dollars in scholarship money. Was it worth it? I don't know, I really don't. I don't think I would do it again either and I'm not even sure if it's helping at all having done it. I can thank it for the scholarships I won and the advanced credits I got for university because I can potentially finish my undergrad in 3 years rather than the standard 4. However, I cannot thank it for ruining my health and my relationships with other people. I do not recommend this program to anyone.

    3. Prom
    I was one of the few people who didn't get hyped up over it, but it ended up being a great time. But it's not something I'll remember for the rest of my life. I told everyone it wasn't a life changing experience, no one believed me then... now they all wished they had been as wise about it as I was. It WAS still a fun weekend though.

    4. Summer
    It was a good summer, not a great one and not an awful one... just purely good. I worked at the hospital over the summer, and all my other friends worked too, so I guess that was what I spent the majority of my summer doing... working. But it was okay, because we weren't in school. We were young and enjoying life the way we should be. Maybe we should have had more great nights and more lazy days, but the ones we did have I hold near and dear to my heart. Here's hoping to a more explosive and exciting summer in 2009.

    5. Potential Divorce
    My parents, are not suited for each other, and everyday I wish they would just throw in the towel and go on with it. They ALWAYS come SOOO close and then they don't. I don't understand them and my uncle is convinced that they both still, in some odd way, love each other. I don't know, nor do I care, but it strains things at home and I have 2 younger brothers. If they cared about us, they would get on with it. I'm tired of the fighting and the yelling which makes me yell at them and I feel so much older than I am or should be. Nothing is worse than yelling at your parents for being immature and childish more than they yell at you for whatever reason. Then, at the end of the summer they pulled the whole "if we divorce, who are you living with?" they luckily didn't follow up on the question, but I luckily came up with an answer. No one. I'm 18, I'll live on my own, simple as that. I'm tired of them together.

    6. I started my first year of university.
    I went in thinking one thing and finished thinking something else. I had honestly been thinking that it would be a walk in the park after IB because that's what all the graduates had said. LIES LIES LIES! I had never been so miserable and I despise university. That, however, is all due to the transition I guess. I'm sincerely hoping that the winter semester will be better than the fall. The only good thing that came out of it was meeting some new boys, joining a new group focused on social justice and making a new friend who's girlfriend is extremely jealous of me. Okay, maybe the latter isn't so nice, but this is something I'm going to have to keep dealing with in the new year, unless they finally break up. School-wise, I finally decided upon a degree- Behavioural Neuroscience. I'm so excited to actually get into the program but the pre-requiste courses KILL me. But that's life, it's not all golden.

    7. I helped to organize a benefit concert and stage managed it.
    I am not musically talented in the least, and that's a shame because I have loved music since I was a child. However, in 2007 I finally found a way to harness my love and do something with it... organize concerts and stage manage them! This benefit concert is the 3rd I have stage managed and I enjoyed every minute of it. Yes, even the performers that had special requests and the performers that wanted to do certain stunts without informing me of it... I could handle it, I could do damage control. This is what I love, and I really hope there'll be more concerts for me to be apart of. I started a wall with posters of all the shows that I have had major roles in and one day I hope to fill that whole wall.

    And those were the major things that happened to me in 2008!
    Some good, some bad but all something to learn from.
    Here's hoping for a good year for me, you and everyone else in the world.

    Resolutions to come ;)

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